Monday, October 25, 2010

October 25, 2010

Dear Family,
Well I had a great first week in Burton. Lots of things are different from Kidderminster, though the first and most obvious one is that I don't know the area very well. It's also organized very differently from Kidderminster. Kidderminster is almost like a big circle with the town center in the middle and everything else leading away from that, but Burton is almost like a couple small town centers with attaching residential areas and just more spread out. Kidderminster was very compact while Burton feels sort of stretched out.
The next big difference is that it feels like we don't really work that hard, which is kinda nice because it means it's a little more relaxed, but at the same time makes me wonder if I can work harder. Along with this though, Burton is a lot easier to have success in it seems. With Elder Mower we had like 3-4/12 weeks with our 10/10/10 goal reached, and even though Elder Duke and I walk like half the day (normally in Kidderminster we cycle and stop people as we bike) we still got it, although we did get the last 3 Books in like an hour tracting a street he and the previous Elder prayed about. I don't know, it's just a little unsettling for me to move from hard area where you work and sometimes get only 4 Books on the week to walking around and talking to like 30 people a day and still getting your 10s and having more investigators at church than I've ever had. To be fair in Kidderminster I think the highest we ever had was 1 at church at a time, but we still beat that here in Burton with 2.
Another massive change is that instead of having 2 Dinner Appointments a week with pretty much the same 2 families, we have a dinner appointment almost every night of the week, and we have to tell people no sometimes because we can't do a night. At least now I'm practicing eating all sorts of different foods not made by me, and I do feel like I'm getting a lot better about not being a picky eater. It is just a big change though, and it's weird because I'm used to having a dinner break to relax and think, not talk to families and stuff.
We have an American family here named the Manors and they're pretty cool, although the kids are a bit crazy. We had Mexican with them last night and that was just kind of crazy because, well, it's England where Mexican food is not the most common thing.
Elder Duke is pretty cool, he actually reminds me a lot of Alex which is fun but creepy at the same time sometimes. He's from Arkansas so he has the whole Southern attitude and upbringing which is different because he actually knows what it's like to grow up in the Bible belt. Last night though we went tracting for the first time (another big difference, I think Elder Mower and I tracted at least every other day for an hour or more) and he kinda had a salesmen vibe which is very plausible because he worked as a door-to-door salesmen before his mission and it really annoyed me. He also will sometimes talk over me, but that might be because his last companion was a greenie and he's used to having to do most of the talking. Hopefully I can work those out, I guess that's why we have companionship inventory, although it seems a little useless as the last step of weekly planning because usually I'm either tired enough of planning I just want it over with or weekly planning was so annoying for one reason or another and I don't want to express how I feel because I'll just want to lash out. This weeks weekly planning was good, but previous ones were not so easy.
Well I still feel sort of pessimistic and I don't want to be, maybe it's just a side-effect of working in an area with almost no success, or maybe I just have some Spiritual growth to do. Or maybe there's lots of good things and I just focus on the negative. I don't know.
I do hope everything's going great back home. Lauren looked really creepy with the black hair, don't let her dye it that way ever. It's getting very cold here as well, especially when it rains it just gets cold all the way into you. So, hurray for 5 months of cold on their way, and a Sun that goes down(eventually) at 4-5. Daylight Savings Time, whenever that starts, is really going to kill. It gets dark at around 6:30 now, so it'll be dusk at like 5 pretty soon.
I love you all and I hope you all have a great week!
Ryan

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

October 19, 2010

Dear Family,
I have been transferred to Burton-on-Trent in the Lichfield Stake/Zone. We found out Saturday night and transfers was yesterday so that was different. It was especially different because normally we don't know we're leaving on Sunday and this Sunday meeting I was able to tell everyone. We had no heating in our building so we abbreviated church to Priesthood and Relief Society and Sacrament Meeting, although in Sacrament Meeting I bore my testimony after the Sacrament and then we closed.
It was hard to say goodbye to everyone in Kidderminster, I realized that everything I associated with missions and missionary work was tied into that city. I know almost every street and all the paths from place to place. Yesterday coming to Burton I felt like a greenie again, just didn't feel like I was continuing my mission or something, like all my knowledge had been sucked away. I was also able to visit Ann one last time (she went to church near London returning from visiting one of her daughters) Sunday night, and that was really good. Very glad she's in Kidderminster and that she wants to help the missionary work along. We talked about politics and she told me I should get into it, and who knows? I certainly haven't figured out what I want to do.
My new companion is Elder Duke and so far it's been a blast. Just so refreshing to be with a new Elder and hard worker. He's the district leader here and my dad Elder Shrubb is one of my zone leaders so it's pretty fun (dad is trainer in mission language). So far since 6:00 last night (it's now 11:16) we've given out 2 books and have 1 new investigator, which is almost half a week's finding efforts in Kidderminster. Burton or maybe just Elder Duke is just awwww relaxing and enjoyable. So hopefully this'll be the great happy and peaceful section of my mission (well I hope all the rest of it is) and that I'll have great fun and good success here.
President Ogden said during transfers if you've had hard times or struggled with something on your mission, don't think about it, don't dwell on it, Your Mission Begins Today. So I'm going to try and apply that here in Burton. I do have to say I kind of missed Elder Mower when I was leaving transfers but now... I'm grateful to be where I am.
Well I don't know the area and I don't know any of our investigators yet but hopefully soon I'll have some good stories and events to tell. It's definitely weird moving into a new area and setting everything up, Kidderminster was just a small apartment in a complex with 12 apartments, but Burton accommodations are a small house. Which is pretty nice for missionaries. Everything in England is pretty compact though, I can only imagine a couple living in this sort of house.

Can't really think of anything else but I love all of you and I'm grateful for all your prayers and advice and everything else.
Love,
Ryan

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

August 2, 2010

Well Dear Family,
This has been an interesting 5 days. I feel like I'm on Elder Shrubb withdrawal, and it's hard/weird to work with a different missionary permanently, unlike exchanges where whatever happened happened and then Elder Shrubb would come back. It's just hard getting used to a different attitude and personality all the time, climatizing to Elder Shrubb was ok since I didn't really know any better at all, especially in field missionary work. Also just switching from having district leader companion to being junior of a team is a weird switch.

Shona is doing ok, I think she has a testimony or at least an inkling of one, she did struggle with the idea of no coffee and smoking and while I think she knows she needs to stop using them, she doesn't see how she can. She also flaked out on church Sunday because she's just afraid of church and I think trying to keep the Word of Wisdom and all. We are going to have FHE with the Branch President's family and her at President McCall's house tonight, so hopefully that will work out.

Ann has like 4 missionary projects going on really, she has her friend that didn't come to church this week because of a family B-day party but is interested and wants to come next week, another friend she periodically has lunch with that is a less-active that said those years of activity were the best of her life but the church was too restricting, her daughter and her partner who are sorta warming up to the church, the daughter more than the partner, and her grandson who she has a close bond to who I've met a few times. He's really cool and likes and respects us, but he would have to change a lot to accept the gospel, but we'll work with Ann on all those groups. She really is an awesome recent convert.

Well that was a fun synopsis. Umm on the other hand of things I really liked the Carter pictures, do you think I could have some for my family album that are standard photos? I'm afraid the ones of him and Piper will bleed or get ripped and I can't put them in my album. Also I found out if you want you can send me CDs with conference talks so if you want to collect some about missionary work, or some from Elder Holland that would be cool.

So yeah right now is a little harder than when Elder Shrubb did mostly everything and I trusted him because he's such a good hard worker and now I'm trying to figure out how I can be the best junior companion possible. Ehhhh I'll survive. I just need to get used to the changes and not stress and not compare trainer to follow-up trainer and the steal the best of both.

I think I also neglected to say that Monday is P-Day now so that'll be an interesting adjustment, so maybe Sunday night emails are the thing to do now.

Well I have more time so I'll tell you all about my super dodgy Priesthood lesson.
So we had no investigators at church (again) and so we were in Priesthood and one of the Elders got up to teach the creation. And like the first sentence he said was "And now some of what we'll talk about is controversial, and yes we will talk about the Big Bang Theory" So I knew this was gonna be terrible from the beginning. Well it only got worse when he handed out blown up photocopies of Facsimile 2 in the Pearl of Great Price, so from then I knew we gonna talk about Kolob. So by now I'm kind of glad we had no investigators show up for this lesson and I'll just share some of the things we covered. Supposedly in a letter to his brother Joseph Smith said that Jesus has been working for the Father for 2,555,000,000 years (2 Billion), that the Earth has been around for that long, if you divide that number by 365,000 (Kolob time for something) it comes out to 7,000 or the amount of time the Earth is supposedly been here, in Kolob time. That only has so many confusing issues, the first of which I hit was that the Earth takes 365 days and a quarter to make a full revolution so why not 365,250 for that figure, and other things. Then he briefly talked about Ex Nihilo (out of nothing) and how the Earth was organized not made out of nothing. That one was pretty standard knowledge I think, but still kinda random. Then he talked about 'Gaia' or the spirit of the Earth and I'm not sure if he was implying it was sentient or not, but it was just weird. Then he talked about how when the Earth was made it was originally Pangea and how that changed after the flood or something, and then at the end as we were running out of time we started talking about evolution.

What did you learn last Sunday?

So yep, life is interesting here in England.

Love all!
Ryan

July 28, 2010

So I'm tired and it's transfers and so I'll just write a little and then maybe catch up next week.

Elder Shrubb is leaving(well, left) to be a Zone Leader in another Zone, and I now have Elder Mower as my senior companion. His name is pronounced M-ow(as in, pain ouch)-er so it's not like lawnmower. Ummm things are looking better here in Kidderminster, Shona and her children are looking to be baptised on the 14th of August (the lady with the child in the hospital) we've taught her maybe 2 or 3 times since last email and she seems really solid on everything, we've even gotten past 2 of the big 4 commandments (still have word of wisdom and tithing to go so wish us luck) and Ann our awesome recent convert (from before my time) has a friend she's bringing to church that hopefully we'll start teaching and she'll want to learn and be baptized! So I'm trying to be excited. I don't really know Elder Mower well enough to be pumped or sad that it's changed but everyone is like aww yeah he's awesome so I'm excited-ish right now.

It's a little weird to know that I'm 1/17th of my mission in the field. Not really sure how I feel about that and I'm not counting down the time it's just a fact that presents itself. It's weird to think BYU will start up soon and stuff will start happening in Provo and stuff but it's cool here, and as soon as I sleep and don't have a headache it'll be grand. I do need to call President Ogden today to see if we can waste out err, teach investigators on a guided tour of a place called Bishop's Woods. By the way, last Saturday Elder Shrubb and I went to Aston Manor Hall, so you can like Wiki that and be like "Yep, our son went there on his mission. Cause he's a waster." If I haven't said before, wasters are people in the field that don't really work. We did have a reason to go though so yeah it's all good. Oh man I just kinda want to sleep, and it doesn't help that I'm sorta senior companion for a couple of days. I'm also working on humility cause I fear I'm becoming a striver (someone who wants leadership for selfish reasons) at least in part, because I DO have a want to be recognized as talented and a leader etc. At the same time part of me is like you fool that means more work, just chill out and try to learn. It'll be interesting to have this transfer without being a district leader junior companion, which is pretty nice. I'm still a little worried that it'll be weird to adjust to a new senior. I feel like if it was a junior it'd be easy to adjust to but since this kinda changes how I do things because he'll do things differently it'll be interesting. I'm just glad I'm not getting a dead companion. (dead as in let me off the mission bus now[missionaries that have served but are done now are also referred to as dead and if you were their last companion you 'killed' them])

So yeah, also if I never said before Kidderminster is REALLY hilly, and Elder Shrubb loved to go as fast as possible up the hills, so that was kinda a pain. Oh well, it's all pretty good.

By the way, odd request, but can you dig in my Brother Parker BoM manuals for where it talks about Satan's plan? It's organized by the parts of the Book of Mormon so look in areas that correspond to parts of the Book of Mormon that talk about the Pre-Existance, like maybe Alma 37-43 area. I think somewhere in First or Second Nephi it also says something like that so maybe try that. I wanna know what book of Bruce R McKonkie he wrote about it in, it's the part that talks about how Satan's plan was for us to have no agency but to live in sin basically, I think he calls it a "philosophical impossibility" so maybe just try googling that with Bruce R McKonkie. Not very important, but I'm curious about it. Well Love and take Care!

Elder Ryan Baxter

July 20, 2010

Alright so I've been rebuked by Alisa and last week was a non-emailer, really. So to start I'll make up by explaining what we did that caused my email to be a bit short. So we had a zone P-day where we all go into Birmingham, eat at a Chinese buffet and then go bowling. Well we were meant to be there at like 12:30 but there was a bomb threat in a Birmingham station so Elder Shrubb and I had to wait an hour to try and get on, then we had to run and catch a bus instead, so we got there a bit late. The good news is that I was able to quickly pig out on Chinese for 45 min to and hour so I felt decently compensated for my sufferings, though when we left I was thinking of getting a bit more. I gained weight at the MTC and here in Birmingham but it's plateau'd at around 180 so that's not too bad. I do plan on losing 10 of those either right before or right after the end of my mission though. But that's so far away I don't really care. It's on the to-do list whenever that day happens.
But I digress, so we then went bowling which was pretty sweet. It's always great to see all the other missionaries in the zone, and we had a bit of fun. I ended up being the grand champion of our two lanes with I think a score of 132 which is my life top I think, so that was nice. It was a fun break from all the monotony of what we do but it would later turn out we had a bit of such activities in the week.
I remember Dan asked me some questions but I forgot them all sorta and I forgot to bring them with me, but I'll try to answer them to the best of my memory. Kidderminster is a smallish town (it's very urban yet compact in the center areas so I though it was kinda big) and the population is mostly white English people. The only real minority is Polish people but they're not really any more receptive to the gospel so no dice there. Our mission has our own little program thingy called 10/10/10/20 Which means in the first 10 minutes of leaving the flat you speak to someone, you speak to 10 people each day, and you place 10 BoMs a week. Obviously the second 2 10s are encouraged to be exceeded. the 20 is 20 sit down lessons with investigators, but that one is like the dream goal. Our zone, however, has had 4 weeks of perfect 10/10/10s which is like mission history so we're trying to get a perfect transfer.
Yesterday Elder Shrubb and I had a down-up day. Our most promising investigator dropped us because of her issues with her partner, cause she decided it would just be easier to try and work things out with him again, and she said she'll keep in touch, so that was nice and ugh. But the rest of the day was actually pretty great, our other good investigator apologized and explained why she wasn't at church (she was at the hospital with her daughter) so it's not like she's a waster and we had a great lesson with her, and we place 5 BoMs in 1 day so it was pretty good, we met a lady named Denise who's CoE(Church of England) who when we told her about Joseph Smith's First Vision was like 'I never heard of that before! Isn't that wonderful!' So I was just kinda like whoah, is she for real? She seems pretty golden and hopefully she'll read and pray by tomorrow when we'll go to teach her.
The other big highlight of this past week was a stake barbecue here in Kidderminster. Lots of good food, we had a family we invited from just around the area come in and speak to us about the church, they seemed to have a great experience, and I had real Hamburgers, for non-extortionist prices as much as I wanted. We also had a fun and completely chaotic game of football(soccer) where I got tackled by a former professional rugby player, so that was fun. It wasn't a real tackle but I did get knocked off my feet. So that was like 4 hours of wasting out that was sorta justified, with other missionaries there too. We have 2 sisters in our zone so I feel a little bad for them being so isolated, but Elder Shrubb told me sister missionaries do all sorts of weird things that sorta go out of the bounds of regular mission rules, so I don't feel too bad anymore.
I happened to go on an exchange this week out of Kidderminster so that was fun, I went with one of my zone leaders Elder Zito from Italy to his area of Harborne in Birmingham. It was a good experience but it made me totally jealous because we stopped two ladies as they were going in their door, and they accepted a Book of Mormon and an invitation to come to church just like that. We also taught a couple where the husband (and this was their first sit down lesson) was trying to understand how long it would take to be baptized. They're Indian and there's a bit of a language barrier, but they're pretty much golden and I was just like, why do you get to teach these awesome people while people in Kiddy just hate the missionaries?
Well such is life as a missionary. Apparently President Hinckley was a mission president here in Birmingham because I heard a fun story about how one of the Elders here then got hit by a car, broke his leg and the guy that hit him came out apologized and then healed his leg. Well they told their Mission President and he told them to stay there until he could come. So later that night he came and rebuked the spirit in the Elder's leg and it snapped again. So, fun stuff happens here. One thing I don't understand is that in Louisiana I don't think I even knew of people that professed to be spiritualists. Like some kids might have fooled around with it and stuff but I didn't know people that like professed to be that religion. So that's one interesting thing to get used to as a missionary here in England.
Can't think of anything else exciting to tell you, we do the same stuff each week, though I did have a weird realization that like, as far as incentives to come home go, I don't have any huge thing to look forward to. This stems from thinking about 2 missionaries in my district that are dying this transfer and getting a bit trunky. I know one of them has been struggling to stay focused on the work and it makes me wonder how I'll handle it. I'll definitely do my best, but I realized that like at least now looking at it, there's stuff I'll definitely want to do immediately and there's all of you who can't wait to see me but like really if today was my last day I'd be like well I guess I could go home. I thought maybe I could trick myself into thinking a mission is 4 years long and then going 'wow! 2 years in! Only half-Oh I'm done. Ok.' So maybe I'll do that, or I'll just try to die the best I can.

Well Elder Shrubb just got up, so Love, Take Care, i forgot I was supposed to write more about what he's like, Don't worry Alisa I love you and enjoyed your rebuke, take care, if Christa wants to include the Tab Choir CD of like American music I'd like that in her package she was planning to send me, if she already sent it then oh well.
Love all,
Ryan Baxter

July 13, 2010

For Mom and Dad:

I remember you talking about how Christa would write about how much she loves you and didn't appreciate you and stuff and how her mission helped her see that. I was wondering when that would happen for me, and I think I had the first example of that this week.

We had a dinner appointment with a couple, their daughter and their granddaughter and they're all active but they've had struggles. After the daughter and granddaughter left the table we talked about life and stuff and how the daughter had left the church and struggled but had come back, and then the mother talked about all 3 of her children had left the church for awhile but had come back and how that seemed normal during the teenage years. My companion also agreed sorta just talking about how he didn't go to church for a long time for show jumping and other stuff and how as a kid his aunt would get them to drink coffee and wine and stuff when they visited her.

I don't know if all that made sense, but it really made me realize, there was never a time where I really doubted the church. I might have said, the big bang theory makes sense, evolution makes sense, and I don't know how they fit in the creation, but there's gotta be a way. And even stuff like that, it never really seemed plausible to me that the church wouldn't or couldn't be true, and I still feel a little bad about the one time I stayed home from church cause I was sick and I played video games instead. So really, I'm just really grateful whatever you did to keep our entire family in the church from what I could tell all the time and how much you loved us and were patient with us. Elder Shrubb will talk about some of the things his mom would do like read about Laman and Lemuel when they were untidy, and how clothes left in 1 spot in their rooms for a week would get donated to like salvation army, and I just go, 'wow, glad my mom was patient with me and just loved me and encouraged me to be clean and stuff.' I don't know, I'm just glad that I knew you loved me so much and that you still love me and I think as I'll see more families that have some things missing, I'll see even more how wonderfully safe and loving our family is and was.
One thing that shocks me about England is the prevelance of 'partners' or semi-legitimate relationships either with civil recognition or without but simply aren't as permanent as marriages. There are tons of single moms around and Elder Shrubb has told me that lots of people don't even know their partner's religious beliefs.

For everyone:
So... After all my other side emails I was gonna email everyone, and Elder Shrubb just finished and is now waiting for me, so uhhhhh I guess this'll be a brief email to everyone. The nice thing is that there's not lots to talk about that springs to mind, but all is well I'd say here in England. Just so you know Brother Wright sent me 2 copies of the part 2 of the Men's chorus soundtrack so I don't know if that means someone else is missing one or what, maybe let him know, it's not a big deal on my side because I think I could get it maybe from one of the missionaries coming in from Men's Chorus but we'll see. Thank you for all the music though, it's wonderful, and thank you for all the letters I've received, sorry but I don't have time to write back to all of them and really not too much to say. Well, not much else, today is a zone P-day so we'll see how it goes.

Lots of love and not much time,
Elder Ryan Baxter

July 6, 2010

Dear Family (because I only recently got Alisa's letter that said maybe I should start my letters more warmly, and so I felt a little guilty)
Everything here is more or less good and wonderful. I did try to keep names off in case people didn't want their names thrown around but I agree that names help you know what's going on and first names aren't exactly well, specific. The boy is named Tom and to be honest I haven't heard from him like he promised so he might either be low-commitment or he's put it off but I'll make sure we at least phone him and see where he is. If nothing else we've warmed him to the gospel later in his life, but I think he and I would both prefer sooner than 'later on.'
The husband I guess I mentioned (I don't remember saying anything about them) is named Frank and we actually taught him this past week. We decided to just talk about doctrines on a specific subject because he is rather well-versed in Mormon doctrine but at the same time I'd say he's looked at positive and negative sources which makes it a little trickier. We talked to him about Pre-earth life and why we think that's important and also about the spirit world and why we think there are two judgments and how we resolve heaven and hell and then 3 degrees of glory. I didn't notice but Elder Shrubb said there were some times in the lesson where Frank just kinda paused, cause I suppose we made sense. His wife Kelly(I think) didn't join in or listen as far as I know but we have another appointment later this week and hopefully she'll listen in because I think this would interest her.
We also taught a lady named Nikki that other missionaries including E. Shrubb taught and we committed her to church which Elder Shrubb said she's never agreed to before, so hopefully that happens! I really hope we have other people committed to church Sunday because last Sunday we had 0 investigators, including our 1 investigator who was progressing(Lynne). Lynne was sick these past two weeks and we've been struggling to teach her still so at least for a little she's not really progressing but I think she is doing better so hopefully we can get her on the track towards baptism soon.
I'm excited about those CDs because music as you all know is like my lifeblood and that shouldn't have to change during my mission, speaking of which I bought a guitar at a ward auction. I can really only play it on P-days but I plan on learning a bit of guitar today and the rest of the time I'm still here in Kidderminster. I guess it's my present to all future missionaries here. The good news is that Elder Shrubb has been stuck in Kiddy so long he's likely to get transferred and not me which means more geetar time. Oh and we had a message from the post office or someone that there's a package for us so if that is the CD package, we'll get it today :D If not oh well I'll have something to look forward to.
We had an awesome Zone Conference with Elder Kapshka (Christa might know that name) cause he's the Area President of Europe and he taught us and me a lot about how real and valuable personal revelation is. I'm really glad I had that experience at the beginning of my mission because it's helped me redefine my outlook about it all, though I probably would have got more out of it had I had it later, and it may have also been wonderful if this was my last transfer. It was a really great Zone conference though and it's great to see lots of Elders again, especially from my MTC group.
Some thoughts I've had over the last week or so...
I found out lots of missionaries with Echoes footwear would get huge cracks in the soles rendering them useless in wet ol' England so I think it is good I got the Rockports, especially because they aren't uncomfortable really. I do appreciate the loving sentiment in trying to get me to buy them though, don't get me wrong on that account.
Do you or dad or anyone else know what the rules on customs are? I'm just wondering If I buy a backpack or new suits or anything that I actually want to bring back, along with souveniers how I should go about doing that. Just wondering if I'll have to declare customs on like anything that I'll actually need and use that I'll bring back or what. Not very concerned right now about that but If I do need to record those things or whatever it may be good to know.
On that subject I just remembered, did we have to pay for an extra suitcase at the airport? I don't think we did but if we did I would enjoy being compensated for that through my mission fund which I can either return to you or use here. But I don't think we had to.
On to more selfish topics, if you plan any big vacations during my mission, let me know what they are because I realized I'll probably really want a beach vacation of some sort when all's said and done here. Maybe Lagoona beach would satisfy me, but for 2 years without getting wet I think I would like a beach vacation at the end or near then. If you do do something like that don't rub it in.

I got lots of letters at zone conference I hadn't received due to them being addressed to the mission home/field whatever you wanna call it, so thanks for all of those, including the photo album, especially the picture where I look stoned. Thanks Alisa. I also got a letter from Ian which was really cool, and a letter from a girl(that's not my sister)! The only trouble with that last part, is I don't know who the girl is. So I get to write a letter where I have to say that. She didn't put it on the return address, and her signature is a mystery. I'd almost wonder if it was a girl except the handwriting is definitely a girls. What bothers me most is the signature looks familiar, but I didn't know a lot of girls at BYU so who really knows?

If you do put my Kidderminster address be sure to warn people that Transfers are short-notice so around the 5 or 6 week mark not to just keep sending letters here in case I do move. Just warn people about that now and when it gets close I'll say in my email to put that notice up.

But really I'm loving it all for the most part and things sound mostly good at home. Thanks for all the letters and packages and prayers and I can't wait to be back with you all! In like 2 years. Speaking of which, I'm pretty sure I went into the MTC on May 28th, and it's July 6th, so how do you figure it's almost been 2 months? Oh well hopefully that day will come before I realize it. Time is moving along now evenly I think, maybe it'll get faster I don't know. It certainly doesn't feel like I've been serving for too long, though I remember times when it felt like forever.

I think that wraps up this letter, I have 13 more minutes so I don't know how I'll spend them exactly, there might be another email.
Love,
Ryan

June 29, 2010

Alrighty I read all my mail and so now I'm beginning to respond to it all.
I'm so sorry Katie and Jack had that happen to them, that's really, really hard. You would almost wish once the mom decides to go one way or the other that they'd be forced to stay but it is her child. I really hope Katie and Jack are ok. I really have no idea how much that hurts, the closest thing I've seen on my mission like that (and not like that at all) was a mom with her baby we contacted that seemed interested in the Book of Mormon, but last night we visited and her husband was nice but pretty anti-Mormon and she left the room probably because we were on the edge of Bible Bashing. It would really hurt if she couldn't or won't join the church because her husband doesn't believe or want to believe for whatever reason.
On a brighter note, last Wednesday we ran into a 17-year old boy and gave him a Book of Mormon but since it was an exchange Elder Shrubb didn't have him in his list of New Investigators and we didn't make a specific time plan to see him. Yesterday when all our plans fell through we had time to go see him and when I spoke to him he told me that he had read and prayed and had felt something weird and different. He hasn't told his parents and he wasn't sure how to proceed and Elder Shrubb was distracting his brother so we could talk without hindrence, so I did the best I knew to encourage him to talk to his parents about it and I gave him a pass along card with Mormon.org and he said he would definitely call us so I'm really hoping for him. He seemed gentle and sincere enough to really be ready for the gospel and so I really want him to move forward. This was my first real time like this to see the spirit work in someone else's life that I had seen directly from my actions and it was pretty special.

Onto less important things, I realized one or two big things I forgot about CDs and stuff. I REALLY REALLY want the 2009-2010 Men's Chorus Archival CD. I was supposed to get one free at the end of last year but I missed it so like I don't know if you could contact Sister Hall or Nathan Wright and ask them about that or if you can even buy one right now but like I would really love that cause it's obviously mission appropriate and also very close to my heart. On the same lines, either in snail mail or in email I would really like the words to the English Hymn "I heard the voice of Jesus Say" you may remember it as a congregational or audience-including song from one of our concerts to the same tune as If You Could Hie to Kolob. Whatever way you'd like to send it would be nice and appreciated. Now, Christa is a punk and didn't respond to what I sent her last week so I don't know any of her thoughts but along with Come Thou Fount by Sufjan I'd like Christa to select other songs that he has made that are peaceful and spiritually uplifting, and like I said considering my companion has the Last Samurai Soundtrack I think there's a bit of leeway, so long as it isn't distracting. And since we spend lunch and dinner when we don't have Dinner Appointments at our flat listening to music, all extra music would be appreciated. I will say the Kenneth Cope stuff is a bit weird and we haven't listened to it a whole lot. And so yes CDs like How to Train Your Dragon soundtrack and maybe LotR Fellowship, Two Towers, and Return of the King as well as any other soundtracks that would be uplifting and not too reminiscient or distracting ( not sure what an example of this would be, maybe like video game music is off the list). EFY Themes/CDs for 2008,09,10 would also be nice because it's appropriate and upbeat, which makes the line for what's appropriate(like Sufjan Stevens) even grayer. Maybe when I have a President Interview I'll ask him how he feels, but I trust Christa too so if you want to send a package sooner directly to Kidderminster (like 4 weeks left until I MIGHT leave) feel free to include the Sufjan songs Christa approves.

I must confess I did not write anyone last week because I was tired and because I didn't feel like I had a lot to write, especially to family that gets this email anyway but I'll do a few letters today likely. I also have 1 letter from everyone since I've been in the field and even though it's not your fault it is a little bit of a downer, so hopefully Thursday(Zone conference with an area authority, I think the Area President of Europe) I'll get tons of mail that was sent to the mission home.

Lots of love and who knows what more I'll write!
Love
Ryan

Ok the first one has pretty much everything, but I did remember, when it comes to packages I don't know England enough to crave specific foods they don't have here, so unless you make something homemade and really want to share it with me food is not a high priority in packages. Also tell everyone I can't afford to convert $ to £ here easily so send me pounds or virtually add it to my debit card and just inform me.

Trying to think of any last minute things, I love music and we listen to a lot of it and our selection is limited so I would love that sometime roughly soon. Christa said she'll try and send me a tape sometime and that does sound nice so if you want to slip that into a package that could work too, although it is a little early for too many tapes(hers is just about mission life and I think it would help).

I'm trying to love the work and it is getting a little easier and I think it's already beginning to kinda rush by. Technically I've been in the field for like 1 month but only in my area for, well, almost 2 weeks I think, and it feels a little quick already. Maybe it'll REALLY rush by once I settle into everything and it becomes normal, but right now it's not like a dragging painful thing, though it will hit that point briefly every once in awhile. I really want my first baptism because I almost feel like I don't really understand what I'm trying to do out here until I see that, and really develop a love for the people, the work, myself being here, and Jesus Christ who's work it is.

Well that's about it, obviously when you hunt for addresses let them know why you're giving them to me, and at the same time maybe talk to relatives of those I've asked for in the MTC so I can know where they are in the MTC.

I have to say I made a post-mission bucket list which is probably not the best thing, but there are some things that in the bustle of life I've forgotten I really want, or really want to do, so I'd say it's like a better in the good, better, best. Missions without TV and games and everything help you see the world differently like that, and I want to take advantage of "Mission Amnesia" as I call it (Elder Shrubb can remember that there was a song that was one of his favorites, but he can't remember who made it, what it's called, or anything about the tune) I've had a similar experience with a song I liked briefly before the mission, but I still have the entire Blue Album by Weezer logged safely away so it's not afflicting me too much now. But, the real way I'll take advantage of it is so that, as Dad keeps musing, what if you could read The Lord of the Rings again? Well it won't be completely new, but hopefully I can read it and not have Ian McKellin(Spelling?) slated as Gandalf Etc. Cause I saw Fellowship of the Ring before I read any of them.

Well Love, Take Care, BYE!
Ryan

June 22, 2010

I had my first real crazy experience this week when we went and taught a new investigator that had committed to baptism. When we came she was talking about something in the sky, and how Jesus was in the sun. I was a little shocked and confused and speechless but when my comp asked if she would say a prayer with us she was like 'oh yeah sure.' We then had a semi normal conversation until she talked about some crazy things again and stormed off. She did tell my comp that he didn't even realize who was sitting next to him (me) so I'm wondering what she thought I was, but oh well.
We have some good investigators that are close to baptism but not quite there yet. One who is still sorting things out knows it's true but wouldn't commit to setting a baptismal date yesterday, although we kinda hammered her with our testimonies, so that was a little sad.

But oh yeah biking in England is nuts. The first day I had my bike we went to head out and my companion just shoots off. I do my best to go down strange streets and keep up with him but I was like what the heck I can't keep up. I also found out missionaries are really good at slowing down and speaking to people as they pass them on bikes, but I found out that skill takes time to learn. So my companion would stop and start talking and I would screech to a semi-controlled halt next to him and be like what's going on? And, well by then it was time to move on. It also didn't help that that first night it was rainy, so less people were outside and I was trying to figure out this bike thing and it was just depressing, probably one of the worst experiences of the mission so far, but things are better now with bikes and it hasn't rained since then.
I had a mini exchange with a missionary that's like 3 transfers out, and that was good because it was someone besides Elder Shrubb to give me a bit of perspective. It was also nice to briefly have an American companion.

Oh yeah if you make a package which you don't need to for now, at least not immediately, I do need those flossing threaders for my permanent retainer. there should either be some in my old bathroom or you can obtain them at the orthodontist or dentist. But you don't need to send a package soon and I might have/less things for packages next week in email, so probably not package sending time yet. and Packackes can be sent to either my flat or the mission home, either is fine with me and mission is probably preferred in case I do get transferred and packages take awhile. Well, love everyone a ton and I'm excited to have a normal P-day today! Don't count on me emailing later next week but I do think I'll try.

Oh and very quickly, yes bike purchase from the debit card worked ok. I think the total bill ended up at 200£ whatever that ammounts to in USD. I think like 300$.

I have found out wonderous news that we can listen to music with 'acceptable lyrics, that uplifts and invites the spirit.' Considering our flat has 'Last Samurai' Soundtrack and Fellowship of the Ring, I guess that can extend to a fair range of things. So, since I love music so much and from 6:30 to 8:00 we can pretty much have music going, I was thinking of some music I would like. I leave the selection ultimately to your discretion but this is the wishlist I was sorta making.
Tabernacle Choir: America (the one with American hymns and stuff, so I can play that with another American Elder)
Tab Choir: Spirituals (any one of the CDs they may have recorded of spirituals)
Sufjan Stevens Christmas: This one Christa I think will have to decide which one to give me, since she is familiar with missions and music and stuff, but I know I totally find most or all of it uplifting.
Any other Sufjan Stevens that's religious or peaceful and uplifting: Again to Christa's discretion and selection.
How to Train Your Dragon: You know how much I love it, and while it might be distracting because it'll make me think of the music, Elder Shrubb has been sick and he crashed recently for like 6 hours Sunday, and so if nothing else I would like it as a secret weapon to keep myself from going insane if I ever have sick Elder cabin fever. And some of the songs are just uplifting period for daily listening.
Naturally you don't have to send me any or all of that but those were the ones I was thinking of.

On to the topic of letters, I have found out that even though it says to send letters to the mission address so they can be sent to me, that means I have to wait for district meetings or zone conferences or interviews. In other words, Anything and everything you've sent to the mission (besides 1 letter Jamie sent, tell her thanks) is chilling somewhere with President Ogden or someone and I don't know when I'll reach it. So, until next transfer (to calculate, last transfer was Wednesday and they last 6 weeks) my new address for letters that will actually daily get to me is *Flat 2, 29 Ray Mercer Way Kidderminster Worcestershire, DY10 1NX*

Also Lauren said my emails are coming as streams of letters, is that true? I know I'm using the space bar in these letters so maybe she was talking about my cramped writing on the letter. Speaking of the letters did they confuse you how the letter is the envelope? I know that's weird but apparently it makes it much cheaper to send them that way instead. Alrighty I'll send this epistle then read a little more mail than mail some specific people than email you anything else that comes to mind for you(mom) and just general forwarding knowledge.
Love!
Ryan

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

June 16, 2010

Today is a P-day because of transfers but usually in my mission they are on Tuesdays. I can receive email from other people but I'm not supposed to, just so the temptation isn't there so I guess don't give my email address out, or tell them to minimize any emailing, or just to write me letters instead! Sadly that also applies to other missionaries so I guess I'll be writing lots of letters, since it's probably not encouraged for me to write letters to everyone through you. Well I love you and I already wrote Christa the following paragraphs but feel free to forward them to everyone. I'm really in the real world again, it's pretty crazy. I miss you and I miss everyone from the MTC already, but I guess that's what transfers and leaving (Gasp!) will feel like. It was a little hard to leave the MTC, I'm scared to think of how hard it'll be to leave the mission. The Assistants to the President were saying how they didn't want to leave, and one of them is engaged, so that's a little thought-provoking and slightly frightnening, just because while I certainly don't want to leave now, it wouldn't shatter me if I had spent 2 years here and they said it was time to go home, feeling the way I do now. Who knows, I probably can't even fathom the changes that will happen over the next 23ish months. Wow, it is a little scary to think 20 days are almost over and that almost makes a full month. Well love you bunches and don't know what else to write, I'll work my hardest to keep a bright outlook as I hit the deer-in-the-headlights phase, write me something by next Tuesday I guess. Well we're about to head off on wild adventures! Love you!
Just arrived in my first area in Birmingham, Kidderminster in Worcestshire if you wanna try and pinpoint me on some map. It's close to Birmingham I think but I have no clue so who knows really. Today is P-day so I haven't begun tracting at all here yet but I'm excited to start doing some teaching later this evening, I think. My companion is Elder Shrubb from somewhere here in England, I'll be honest his accent is a little hard to follow so I have to ask him to repeat a bit but it's all good. It's weird being alone with only someone I met 4 hours ago and knowing I won't have a new companion for at least 6 weeks, likely 12. Don't know too much about this area but apparently we're going to work on an allottment tomorrow for service sooooo yeah, that'll be fun.
I was kinda expecting our flat to be a bit dingy or bare but there's lots of food (now that I think about it there's not too much you can just pack up in 2 days for transfers) left over and tons of random things, like some weights :D My companion says he's not too excited for exercise each day but that makes a little more sense when you consider we have no shower, just a bath. That's just bizarre to this poor American Greenie, but it sounds hilariously weird and awesome. Or I'll just convince myself it is. We're now in a library somewhere in the city(I have no idea where anything anywhere is!) and after this we'll go shopping for groceries for me so I can survive till next P-day. Tomorrow I'm supposed to buy a bike so I guess Mom and Dad get a nice deduction on my debit card balance, hopefully there's plenty on it.
It's kinda a bummer since President and Sister Clegg let me email yesterday very quickly, because I don't have anything real exciting to write beyond I'm in the field, excited to start and I have no idea what I'm doing, well sorta. I know the gospel and I know a bit about life and so now I need to use that to teach and preach and baptize. I guess I can mention some of the investigators my trainer told me about. We have one sister who is ready to be baptized(she follows all commitments and commandments and comes to church) but hasn't committed yet, a lady who has accepted a commitment to be baptized but might not be all there, a man who had a terrible past life but wants to turn his life around but he has schizophrenia, and another sister who I think they were teaching here but is gone on holiday(vacation) so we'll have to wait on that.

Love very much from you missionary,
Elder Ryan Baxter
We're allowed a quick email before we leave the MTC so I just wanted to say I love you and I'll probably write you Monday on email again but who knows where I enter the field.

Well I love you and I'm excited to serve and go to my mission and I'm surprised at how fast this MTC experience has gone and how close I feel to the presidency and my fellow missionaries. I think that's what it'll be like but even stronger when it comes time to go home, I guess Christa may have been right to be confused with her loss of being a missionary who knows! Love you and all the mail I'm getting, though I will say food in packages is wonderful but maybe permanent things like CDs are maybe better, I'll ask the mission president. I'll send a picture of the MTC people and missionaries next week when I have more time to tinker with computers, email is a little weird right now.
Love much much!
Ryan Baxter
Life here is pretty good I suppose. We went street tracting last Friday which was sort of a deer in the headlights thing, not so much because I didn't know how to teach and invite but because it was our first real taste of real people and real England so far since we became missionaries. My comp was a natural at it and that really helped me increase my respect for him.
As far as Elder Cameron and I go, it's pretty decent or good I guess. He mumbles a lot in Australian accent so sometimes it's like what? huh? whadya say? He also calls people "dillo" and says people are "slack" when they're lazy. That's for Alisa who asked about him. We have had times when it was just like 'hey Elder Cameron, cmon I need your help teaching the lesson.' That happened last night and I think he was unsettled about something or just homesick. The night before we taught a great lesson where we taught together in like perfect unity. Elder Cameron also knows more English stuff than we do so he'll be like, 'you don't call them biscuits?' and such.
I've learned a lot while I've been here and it's weird to think that like 2 weeks ago we were at Arches National Park. Things change so much for us as we grow here in learning and preparing to teach. It's pretty impressive. On the other hand, some things are hard, like strict obedience the way our Mission President here at the MTC wants us to be. I don't know exactly where we're supposed to draw the line, but he is a strict adherrent to "No light mindedness or loud laughter" which can be hard when we're enjoying each other's company. Some missionaries got in trouble for writing jokes on a marker board and it was just hard to try and understand why those things bothered him so much. He even said things like people who do that don't deserve to be here, which is odd considering how bad some missionaries in the field are.

I'm not really homesick though I do think of home every day, and I have to confess maybe I think more about the end of my mission or right after my mission than I should, I don't know. England is very pretty and a bit rainy here in Chorley near Preston, and the Temple is pretty small. I look forward to doing sessions with everyone when I get back to Provo.

Running short of time but nothing comes to mind now of what else I need to say and I think you already have a lot to read from me. I love letters so keep sending them to me.

Love you lots, miss you lots but not enough to slow down my work. Hope you all are having a great time and hope you're praying for me.
Love, Elder Baxter

June 2, 2010 MTC LIfe

Everything is going pretty great here, I'm glad Lauren misses me but hopefully she can deal with that, I think it's funny she's just now reading Enders Game. So far the MTC has been great, and Elder Hanks is in my district so I see him every day. I'v seen an Elder Fowers around because there are only 50 missionaries here. This is also the largest group of missionaries they've had in the past year, so this MTC is SMALL. The food has been surprisingly survivable. Some things like veggie fajitas were questionable and I barely ate half of what they gave me, but we've also had some good food. I'm even eating my veggies, well sorta. You might be surprised what I'll eat when I come back, as long as I pray before I eat it.
My companion is Elder Cameron from Australia. His accent and idioms are sometimes really hard to understand and he has a hard time finding alternate explanations for Australianisms. The first couple of time we practiced teaching as well he really struggled to communicate clearly and articulately, as well as simply speaking up at all. Fortunately I think his fears of talking to strangers about the gospel or his general shyness is dissipating, and we taught a great lesson last night. Well, role play but the role plays here have been really good. We have milestones for each step of teaching, and Monday we had our first one where we taught a member referral for the investigators first time. The emphasis on the lesson was to find what the investigator needed or would find most relevant and important about the gospel and then teach about it. They had some members and teachers in the area act as the investigator mostly, but we had the sister missionaries in the MTC. By the way, we have about 48 elders and 2 sisters. So yeah. Poor sisters. During the lesson we were talking about handling hard trials the Lord gives us, and during the lesson we asked one of the sister posing as the member with us in the lesson to share a time when she suffered a great trial. Keep in mind the investigator had just been divorced in the role play. She said, "Oh yeah, about a year ago, my puppy died." Kinda derailed everything and the poor sister realized how funny that sounded and tried to not laugh. We were on film and the entire scenario was very real so we needed to keep the spirit but it was really hard not to just burst out laughing. We survived, but I can't stop cracking up at the thought of it.
Don't have much else to say really, it's just sorta mission life. I'm excited to go street contacting Friday, and hopefully Elder Cameron and I have success. Besides the accents of the teachers and the food we're eating, it's a little hard sometimes to realize we're in England.

Welcome

Welcome to Elder Ryan Baxter's new missionary blog. We'll be posting his mass emails to this blog weekly, and we'll try to keep his snail mail address updated (sidebar to the right). If you have any questions or want to contact his family/parents, please leave a comment. Oh, and write those letters! He loves to get them!